Chapter II : The Adulthood, The Resignation

"Life is ours to be spent, not to be saved."
(D.H. Lawrence)

Lyrics - Listless

I'm tired of hating all these things that I once loved
my guitar's lying on the floor
I can't stop laughing still I'm crying
these tears of joy or bitterness, they somehow feel the same
no I'm not deaf, I just won't hear
go back to days when this was real

the sea is darkening
a summer breeze invades my lungs
it's giving me the creeps as I'm
thinking of the days when
we screamed out loud
the joy, the anger & the love
hearts in our mouths
we passed out hand in hand at last

a bird can't spread its wings
I'm having trouble breathing, it's so tiring to sing
stuck in my head for way too long now
this melody of listlessness is poured into my ears

so wake me up, I'm almost dead
kill this clown that's in my head

I see the sunset
a wind of past blows through my hair
a smell so fresh and unexplored
it makes me wanna die there

so I scream out loud
the joy, the anger & the love
hearts in our mouths
I'll pass away alone at last

a garden that has lost its flowers
a flower that has lost its loveliness

the sea is darkening
a summer breeze invades my lungs
it's giving me the creeps as I'm
thinking of the days when
we screamed goodbye

a fire burned it to the ground the house of all my dreams
I can't stop now it's way too late

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Lyrics - A Plain Guide

I see your smile (as) I’m choking
on those pictures
reminding me of someone
who was lost in better days

so welcome to my world
of doubts I’m bathing
in my own blood after my conscience’s stabbed my soul

so thank you for your time
I’m on a roller coaster ride
my eyes are shut I’m blind
but you just guide me through
sometimes I’m blowing up like dynamite
you must not let me
you cannot let me down

you see my smile (as) you’re choking
on thoughts of leaving
when you feel lost & lonely
I’m still there to lend a hand

the light that shines on me
could make me breathing
but still it’s blinding me
it’s so hard to trust in it

not giving up this time
the clouds are leaving
you cannot take my dreams from me i keep them hidden
sometimes a smile can say a lot more than a thousand words, I’ll
just start over again
(somewhere else)

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Lyrics - C.O.A.B.I.E.T.L.

so here they are again
these hours full of pain and
a dress that absorbs the sun on this awkward day
miracles around but I’m not moving
is it over now, is it over now?

it can’t bring me down
no feelings, no sounds

the pictures are fading
the light’s gone away
awake still not trading
all those silly questions
whose answers died a long, long time ago

so here you are again
look out the world is changing
but you didn’t get it on to change with it
so tired of shit-talk, tired of conversations
that repeat themselves like books on high school shelves

so scream, curse and cry
they won’t hear your sighs

the pictures are fading
the light’s gone away
awake still not trading
all those silly questions
whose answers died a long, long time ago

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